16 feet away ... !

Monotony is an aggressive depressant ! and only a few things blossom in your life that perhaps add the right seasoning to that monotonous life we all hate to pursue… but for the sake of credit cards, coffee day breaks, pubs and the responsibility… quietly push the life ahead ignoring those imperfections :)

The time of my life when I felt that everyone I CRAVE to be with are away beyond the horizon…. There sure comes a hope of light :)

Eyes matter a lot for communication in this world when words are seldom used over the messengers and mails ! Eyes communicate and so Does the SMILE and the blink J She would come early … (before me anyways) and I would never fail to notice her presence. Even though the zone makes you feel like day or night has a CFL to replace the sun, her eyes through her glasses make her pretty. Brown eyes… that’s all I noted at the first look.

Every time we cross each other (coincidentally .. EVERYDAY…) v look at each other… make that eye contact and just pass each other. NO smile. No words spoken. Absolutely NOTHING exchanged. She looks nice…and it makes me look dumb ! (and otherwise too)

I had this habit of looking at ID cards and thanks to the sharp eyes i've maintained for that dream to be in the Army… I still spot small things very clearly even from a distance. Perhaps its situational disorders like the one that I’m going to mention that perhaps changes the course of life ! J Because whenever i’ve tried to spot her name from the ID card around her neck, eyes go BLURD, lights go dim and DHAMMMM …. I find myself facing the wall or gaping in your seat like a from waiting for the prey.

Sometimes you straighten your attitude and even when you are conscious of her presence moving in the opposite direction , u look busy into the phone or at watch just to save the embarrassment. Otherwise you share a smile and smirk with yourself en route to the pantry… saving the confrontation… but listening to her voice. I don’t hear the violins… but I do hear commotion of all the cubicles bustling with VoIP phones ringing and programs facing roadblocks ! :)

And there comes the manager and tells you , ” Hey let’s move you into a more challenging team. Let’s get you moved to another location on the floor where you can be in proximity with your new team members “.

At first it felt nice to receive something challenging… tried and tested coming up in your career ladder… and on the next blink you realize…the lady who alas caught your eye was just 16 feet away… always getting that attention and perhaps you never know what she thought about. “ do you even know her name ?! “… damn… there you go sitting miles away… where a minute equates to an HOUR of your life and perhaps craving…

A thought gushes in… “ out of sight and out of mind ”… does that really work ? is it more important to focus in demanding situations (… like looking at the ID card ? )…and stay afloat of the rest of the drowning crowd ?!

Keep pondering… :) one day I’ll find her name :) and tell her she got pretty brown eyes ! (And that’s all !! ;) )

And that how 16 feet of space can influence can catch your eye ! :)

PS : This work is truly a FIGMENT of my imagination… and I’m a certain believer of “ Imagination always has a lot of reality “ . Comments welcome J

The rat race begins !!

The last post was disturbing…. Note the dates.. ! :) I can only say I wish to continue to use this repository.. AGAIN ! :) things have changed .. indeed moved on. This time only for the better I believe ! :)

The stroll of teenage to end of college life indeed laid the bricks for the ultimate rat race. Kept reassuring myself that everything that I do from now on would inevitable be for the GOOD. Life takes many courses and I went the Infy way. Training starts… life begins the BIG corporate way. From the awe inspiring infrastructure to the mind boggling campus, the whole place was a paradise.. or was it? !!! Made some awesome friends. Yup… dearly miss them. More than the technical skill set for the resume, I believe this life taught me 2 things…. Very important things !!

How to work without much sleep !! … and next… How to be lucky and always be on the RIGHT side of life. Alcohol became a source of life… smokes became the literal constant in life to keep the gravity HIGH :) just the bare necessities to stand your ground and wait for the inevitable ! :) Those who can relate can … and i'm sure… will nod in the affirmative :) ! On the note of dedication… Thanks for all the smokes I borrowed… for all the care I received when I was low ... and to the computer screens when I dint know wot the answer to the questions were ! :) Cheers to all ! :)

And then came the familiar gang… Classmates from school… friends from different parts of the country whom I thought I would never meet again… all came together.. ! :) alcohol.. weed .. smokes.. guitars… gazebo and the module tests… surprisingly… this coagulation cobwebbed life in a way… but never made u trip n fall… its just like the feeling u have when you are in a crowded bus. It is so crowded that u actually don’t have to hold anything to support … because all are in the same shit ! :) and that's precisely what we all were going through during the training at Infy… we were all in the same SHIT… more importantly.. TOGETHER ! :)

Dedicated to Advait, Raghu and Vishal… mysore drinking escapade was one of the most stunning nites ! :)

Leaving training was the most nostalgic experience in my life… so far. Left the place in a hurry.. and when I was actually driving back home.. it struck me … and there it was … “ What now with life ? where the FU** am I heading now ? “ . Friends were gone… all biting on to their piece of flesh in different directions ! and there was me on the list too. Where on earth is life heading ? perfect example of the Quarter life crisis. I think I was running the rat race… and ran all the way from Mysore to Cochin to Trivandrum to land at Bangalore ! Came here to feel at home with the Brotherhood in Advait, Vipul and Sourabh... (Aka thakur... patel and sanghi respectively... )and the NEVER SAY NO to anything - Namitha, Abhishek.. (stillfler)... Pallavi n Roli (aka Bhatti n Ms. Confused(or is she)...) ... big brother Sourabh Bhaiya(he is the Big B :))... and many more to come :) always dreamt of being here living MY LIFE… MY WAY ! … adding life to the BLOG NAME…. LIVING MY MIND ! and here continues the NEXT lap of the JOURNEY ! stay tuned ! :)